year number 4 Mum and it's not getting any easier without you, we all miss you so much..jason still needs guidence from somewhere, he's been doing better but he's still missing something in his life..marnie and blaine are doing well, they're spoiling themselvs going on holiday. they deserve every bit of happiness that comes thier way..nick's having a rough time at the minute with loosing his job and missing arlene, he's looking for signs..can you help him out?..mark is working hard as usual he's such a great man, him and louise are thinking of getting married, louise really loves him and she is a really lovely girl..nana doesn't phone as much but i think she is doing ok..dad's had it bad lately i hope he finds the strength to get through this and that the pain eases for him..well you know me, same old...i wish you were here with me every day..love you more..xx